Man, I feel like time is literally flying! It is already November! October was a complete blur, if you ask me. My youngest turned 7, we went to NYC for a weekend visit, and that’s about all I remember. After August, the year just seems to go into hyper-drive. And most times, I only recall a couple of choice moments. W-E-I-R-D!!!!
But, I am keeping busy. The girls are good. Double RR is wonderful. And church is kicking my butt! In a good way, of course. I am still on the worship team and they are developing me into a bold, courageous, satan-fighting, worship machine! Amen and hallelujah! LOL!!!
The practices can be brutal, though. Only because they are at night and I have to have the girls with me. I drive South to drive all the way back up and it’s not right down the street. I really love the Lord to make this drive once a week. But, He sacrificed much for me, so I should really and truly….shut up.
Everything is for the glory of the Lord. He is the one that gave me this gift to sing, and sing is what I shall do. Cause even when I don’t sing, I am singing. Isn’t that weird? And I can’t stop. So, He has placed me somewhere that the talents and gifts that He’s placed in me will go to GREAT use! And I am excited. It’ll still be a long while before I am going to be onstage, but it’ll happen sooner than I think, I’m sure of it.
I started Financial Peace University at my church last weekend and it is so nice to finally make that decision to get my finances back in order again. It’s a course designed by Dave Ramsey that uses biblical teachings and common sense to get people out of debt. It’s pretty simple and easy, but you have to have a mind and heart change to get it done. That was the problem that I had with the ex. His heart and mind just wouldn’t budge. Financial issues were our root problem. That, only with being unequally yolked spiritually.
And on that note, I kinda find myself in the same boat with Double RR. Not as drastic, but parallel. And it makes me a little afraid because I remember the hell that I went through trying to make a relationship work with my own husband, much less a boyfriend. But, on a brighter note, I pray and go to church more with Double RR than I ever did in 17 years with the ex. And we speak more about Jesus and the church. It’s just that Double RR hasn’t allowed the Lord to come into his heart yet. And I don’t know why he hasn’t and if he ever will. That’s a decision that only he can make. But the scariest part is his lack of financial management. I can deal with the being unequal spiritual yolk thing a lot better than the financial thing.
Women need to feel secure, especially when it comes to the finances. I know he’s a hard worker, so, I am not afraid of that. But I would like him to become a better steward of his money. I don’t want to get another divorce because of finances. Money issues can always be worked out. It just takes two willing people to work on them. Sometimes when I am talking with him about his finances, I start to feel as if I am nagging him based on his reactions or even his inaction. He’s a good man. I am going to have to just back off of helping him with his finances if he doesn’t want to help himself. And then, we’ll just have to wait and see what happens then. Just pray for us. We had a very open and honest conversation a few days ago and we left it on a pretty good note. That’s because it’s still early and there is still time to see what happens. Hopefully we will see some great changes in both of us and we can continue on to a bigger, brighter and better future with each other in it. As husband and wife. But I will not put the horse before the cart. And I will give this relationship and both of us up to God.
Fall is here. And I am so excited for the future that is coming around the corner! Ciao!