WOW!!! It has really been an extremely long time since I have written anything! So long that it took me a good five minutes how to upload a picture and to figure out the new format for this website. But I’m back, BABY!!!! And I’m filled to the brim with great news! Double R proposed and I happily accepted!!! YAY!!!!!! Yes, yes, YES! Love really does exist after heartbreak, and I am totally happy that it does.
He proposed to me on June 22, 2018, in a hotel room and in front of my girls. And he videotaped it too! He had rose petals on the floor and index cards in different locations and he made me read them out loud. By the time I realized what was going on, he was down on one knee and I was cracking up with laughter. LOL! I honestly didn’t know any other way to react. But I accepted and we are getting married in March.
Both of our families are super happy and my girls are just through the moon with joy for us. They really like Double R. It’s going to be a small wedding, because it’s my first official wedding and plus, I have never wanted a huge wedding. ever. Makes no sense to spend so much money for one day. It’ll be at my cousin’s house and she is the best party planner/decorator, so I know it’ll be slamming.
I bought my dress, my bouquet, and I’m buying all the little things before I have to buy all the major stuff in January. Got everything for my centerpieces and my cake topper and the Mr & Mrs set for the sweetheart table. There will be no bridesmaids or groomsmen. I just want us standing there at the altar. My kids and his daughter will walk down the aisle, but not as junior bridesmaids or flower girls. They are just walking. Like I said, simple and elegant is the theme. And there shouldn’t be any more than 50 ppl there. My dad is paying for the whole thing too! He is super excited. It’ll be his first time walking a child down the aisle too. He didn’t come to my 1st wedding (courthouse at the last minute) and he wasn’t able to attend my sister’s wedding either.
It’s crazy, man. Life is crazy. And God is good! We’re not living together and we are going to start pre-marital counseling next week with my church. Everything about this relationship is so right and we’re doing things differently. God is the foundation and the center of it all. I’m glad that God healed my heart so that I was able and willing to give mine to Double R. And he has taken such good care of it! He’s super excited and he wants to move down here to start our life right away. He would come now if he could! But there’s no rush. March is literally right around the corner, especially when you’re planning a wedding.
And he is very involved. Or as much as I allow him to be, or that he can be. He lives in Orlando and I am in West Palm Beach, so there is a good amount of distance, for the time being. He’s going to drive down for the counseling, since it’s only once a week for 6 weeks. That’s love and dedication, I tell ya. There is such a peace and a joy in this relationship. Much more than I have ever experienced in any other relationship. I don’t know if it’s because we’re older and not about playing them stupid games, or if we have truly learned from past relationships and mistakes, or if it’s God Almighty leading us.
I think it’s all three and then-some.
I know it’s God. And I know that I ain’t about playing games anymore. My time and my peace is PRECIOUS. And so is his. And our hearts aren’t play toys. Our relationship isn’t perfect, but we rarely argue and if we do, we discuss it out like adults. It’s refreshing to be with someone who is on the same page of life as me and wants better for not just himself, but for me and for our kids.
And we LISTEN to each other. This is so important. And I know that things are always hunky dory until you live with someone, but trust me, after a year, you can usually see the giant red flags even if you are not living together. Thankfully, there are no giant red flags. No one perfect, there are things that I will chose to have to live with when it comes to him and vice versa. I’m not easy, but neither am I too hard. But when it’s the right one for you, then you know what you will choose to live and deal with.
I am so in love with this man. And he is so in love with me and my girls.
I’m going to try to write more often, as there are also new and changing developments in my kids’ lives as well. And I have to let you guys know about the ex and his family as well. He’s not as important, but he’s a part of my children’s lives, so he’s gonna pop up, here and there.
I remember when I first started blogging, my heart was so broken and just in complete pieces. What a fabulous job God did in piecing them back together!